Ebb and Flow of Creativity and Anxiety Drawings

Currently I find myself looking down my checklist thinking, I don't want to do that, or that, nope, don't feel like doing that.  I am fidgety and restless and yet feel an absolute apathy to do anything constructive.  Once I get on a roll I am fine but it's like drawing blood from a stone getting into that state!  I haven't truly created, painted, unleashed lately and I believe that's a big part of it.  The last couple of months have been about planning, doing, being in the right place at the right time, remembering lists of things to carry around and pass on to people.  Having gone from a very narrow field of goals to all of a sudden being everywhere and being 'normal' is actually far from it and feels very strange. 

Over the summer I made a conscious decision to continue markmaking as often as I can, even if 'inspiration' has run dry.  I've gone such long periods in life without painting and drawing and I know in retrospect how important they are for my mind and wellbeing. 

So for want of a better phrase these are the start of a series of 'anxiety drawings'.  There is no end vision, no real planning, there is still judgement but I try to keep it light. I am all for sharing positivity, it breeds positivity and so I am reluctant to talk about feeling sad, helpless, anxious, angry but I have a desire to persevere, to be resilient, to feel good and that's where these little artworks come in, they tether me to that resilience. And make sure I don't lose touch with creativity. 

We turn to art and we connect.


 




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